"hey dad look at me
think back and talk to me
did i grow up according to plan?
and do you think I'm wasting my time
doing things I wanna do?
but it hurts when you disapprove all along
and now I try hard make it
I just want to make you proud
i'm never gonna be good enough for you
i can't pretend that i'm alright"
Too much to tell, but don't know where to start. I thought that I was in my lowest point last week. full of tears and fears. i don't know. but then I open my eyes, ears, heart, and I realized that God always here beside me to keep my chin up.
By the lyrics above, it feels like sometimes only simple plan really know what I feel. because I try to talk someone, but actually no one really understands.
I still want you, how to keep me going through this hard times to get you?
Even maybe you don't understand what I am talking whoever you who read this, but from my deepest heart please pray the best for me, my life, my family, my next college application. Oh ya Allah, please make it easier for me to take place in my next college. Aamiin. Bismillahirrahmannirrahim.
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"and I hope you can't change me"
